Its been a very very long while since i actually wrote a proper entry. I guess i just didnt see a need to pen down my thoughts anymore. The last time i wrote was when i was dating dear fiance, it was more of a reminder to me how dating felt like..very detailed..down to how every gesture made me feel. Reading it again makes me smile. One of the reason why this entry is made is prolly due to one of the so called event that not exactly mark a change in my life..but affects me in one way or another.
Engagement.
To most, it may seem like a sudden move. To me, it was just right. It wasnt hard, nor was it a hassle or a chore. It just felt right. Everything falls nicely into place, the house, the preparation. Needless to say i believe he was made for me. Insyaallah..amin. Preparations are going well so far. Infact i think im way too "relax" .. I cant wait for the next change in my life. Not the idea of marriage, but more of what i can do after marriage. Like finally leaving the sky, have kids and upgrading myself. The change to be a better muslim, wife, daughter and woman. Amin amin amin. :) "I praise Allah for sending me you my love, you’ve found your home it’s here with me, and I’m here with you ..Now let me let you know.... You’ve opened my heart I was always thinking that love was wrong... but everything was changed when you came along.." - maher zain
To whom it may concern, congratulations are in order. Your move was rather sudden to..but im sure it was carefully planned. I hope this marks a new friendship. Semoga ke hari pernikahan.. "Ive always been in love with you..i guess you've always known its true..u took my love for granted why oh why..The show is over say goodbye.. " - madonna
And to the one whose on the run..if you're reading this..whatever decision she made was solely hers. Infact come to think of it..i regreted suggesting her to give u benefit of the doubt.. Her misery could have ended sooner..who knows. Whatever happen is your fault. Face it. You did it. You made it happen..no one else to blame.. I just when u fall..u stop dragging ppl down with you. Its time for u to be a man and take the fall on your own and stand up at the end of it all. Stop being the so called "champion" talker..and be a true man. Making threats? come on...highschool is so 10 years ago.
Not trying to push any buttons..but the very fact that she fears for my safety just irks me.
And you..i appear in your entry once in a while..not in a very good way most times..or sometimes. You have moved on ..i get it. Me visiting your site..has got nothing to do with me still "in love" with you. I left you..for a very clear reason. Reasons justify-able to me. I'm glad u made something of yourself and i wish you all the best. May u find happiness in your own way.
I may be the one who got away or may not be the one who got away. To me, all of u have played a part of educating me what life is about in a subtle or painful way. Now with this, i shall begin everything with a clean slate. No more looking back. Time for me to take that waiting hand and walk into the future with. Exciting much!
Its been a very very long while since i actually wrote a proper entry. I guess i just didnt see a need to pen down my thoughts anymore. The last time i wrote was when i was dating dear fiance, it was more of a reminder to me how dating felt like..very detailed..down to how every gesture made me feel. Reading it again makes me smile.