seriously sucks to be cooped up in the room...i wish i had places to go to..atleast it helps being distracted..i was looking thru my old files..mostly pictures...which brings me to
the ex-bf i wonder how he is doing right now.. if he is seeing anyone..if he has decided wat to do thereafter..or if he has yet again fallen into the dark pits of disgust with the (pardon my language here..i cant help it) rest of his disgusting friends (oh i dun means all or most of them, just some of them) ..i do hope he keeps his circle healthy..other than dat ive missed seeing dat flawless face of urs..its even been awhile since ive heard ur voice..i try not to think of it..i guess it was easier to move on bcos the wounds uve inflicted was deep..and u pushed me to my limits with ur take it or leave it attitude..
the dancers, azpirasi my god.ive missed them like err i dunno..ive no idea..i seriously miss dancing and performing..being on stage..it blocks out every other problems u haf..ur just u on stage doing wat u haf to do..no trouble no worries.. and even tho its embarassing wen we get silly on stage by doing some bloopers..it still isnt so bad cos it brings smiles everytime we think abt it..and i hate it dat every other event or activities like bbqs and such they organise is not on my off days..i try not to be affected but its hard wen u feel so cut out of the whole family..wen once u belonged so much..wat am i prattling? haha...watever.
the sec sch mates atleast they still make an effort to invite me and ask if im ard to join them...i appreciate it alot..like LOADS
the poly mates ahh everyone is so busy with their schedule..preparing for marriage..shift works..its just so hard to see the whole group..i miss out chilling sessions at al ameen..i miss hanging out at starbucks and coffee beans playing games pretending liek we're the coolest ppl there..i miss sitting ard by clarke quat or was it boat quay roaring like lions and getting approached by weird apeks..i miss my poly days..
family i miss goin to family gatherings..im always not ard for birthday parties and such..i try not to think too much abt it..but yeah..its times like this wen ur alone..u keep thinking abt the things uve missed..
education i seriously hope it will go sumwhere..if not anywhere atleast i hope my bank account start escalating..haha den i wudnt mind..as long as ive insurance for my late days...
money i happy to say finally i dont feel so tight anymore..im glad im able to provide more for my mum..its bcos of this that i can endure with the life i have now..
love lets not go there shall we?
ahh lets move on to the ppl i often meet this days
nat girlfriend..im not so sure if ur in a rollercoaster ride emotionally..but im glad ur ard..and i hope dat if i didnt make it better.i just hope atleast i got u distracted for abit..
shuk haha..ur a great kaki lah..thank u for joining azpirasi and being my circle of friend lah!
ezrin babe i know its been on and off with us..but im glad wen we do meet..we're still the same.. :)
pyu someone's been occupied huh? haha...no worries..i dun mind having him ard on our outings..the least i cud do for being a bitch back in sec sch days..ahhaha..anyways ur bf is cool...so its fine..i approve! haha
dee i dunno if ur reading this..but things have been abit off with us lately..god knows its been how long since we've talked..i'm sorry for wat happen..truly..i apologise..i hope with time..that gap wud mend.. :)