why do i blog? i seriously have no idea...but since its been a routine to go online..i guess it has become a habit.. hmm...oh right..i used to blog so dat my sec sch friends has a way of getting to know wats up and down with me since we separated to diff sch and rarely meet each other..*check*...we still rarely meet each other..so guess the reason still remains...u know i used to write diaries ..lots of em...i still keep them...and once in a while i wud read them..and its funny to see how u view things at that a certain age..
and for goodness sake i cant blieve i actually gt together with sumone 2 years younger than me at sec 3...and the guy..sec 1..so..maturity level..zero.haha..its was cute and funny and sweet..and so totally innocent...we nvr kiss..we rarely go on dates...we rarely hold hands..wen we did..it wud be wit me blushing...YES..I WAS DAT INNOCENT...the furthest we ever went was mayb to give a peck on the lips..a pecks which lasted no more than 2 seconds.but the relationship was addictive..it beeing so innocent..than that was over after a year plus with that break-patch thing..right after valentines day..ermm..yeah i was told i was mean...
then there was a time where we had bets...rule beeing that we've got 3 days to get ourself a pratner and stay couple...for atleast 2 months...and the winner will get 50 bucks...and i picked "I"(name not mention to protect identity).I was a year younger than me...(again!why oh why do i always pick younger guys)..so this was totally non-commitable(if there is such a word)..i was in for the money...but the guy after awhile had a diff idea..he really wanted to make it work..so i had to end it...and suzie won!
then there was "Black".I didnt call him dat..ppl call him dat...nama gelaran lah katakn...he was a transfer student from my primary sch..and back in those days i used to call him "keling mama"(i really was a little mischievious)...so guess u figures why ppl call him black?no?cos his dark.or mayb he has indian heritage..i dunno..i nvr really asked...so that relationship lasted but only 3 days..he was a mat.and day 2,he wanted to go kissie kissie wit me...hey im no easy woman ok...i didnt even know in the first place y i was wit him... then there was that smart hockey guy..lets call him "R".Ppl wud haf said..wow nisha..ur wit him...ur so lucky..but it didnt work out..he was a sweet romantic guy i wud agree...he really was u know..he writes me poems..in malay!and snail mail them to me...that was after we broke up..and he can sing n play the guitar..he was like the totally cool bf...but still ..no chemistry.but i was thankful tho..he helped me thru my o level...
after which was "dino".Not his real name but his nama gelaran..i got to know him while working at swensen ..sumone whose really into bikes..and dikir barat...and is really tall...his very jiwang...very protective and possesive..at first it was in a nice way...but after awhile it got me "rimas".like hello..i cant even go out with zul?sheesh....and wen i didnt gif him enuff attention he wud go.."why are u doing this to me?u know in sch..ive gt 5 other girls who really wants to be wit me.."ok..i didnt ask for dat..it turn me off...so ur telling me..ur so famous in sch..i shud be so all over u?urgh.it ended.mayb i was just beeing a bitch lah eh?i guess i just wasnt serious...guess i just wanted to be attached to fit in wit the flow...
after which i decided dat i had enuff of this nonsense from guys...and hence i stayed single mingle for a whole of 2 yrs...right thru poly...and mind u...i didnt even pay much notice to guys...except to 1..that was bcos he and his friends..always tease and disturb me..i dunno wat happen with that whole relationship...it went from grade B to a fail..more like non existent..i was surprise i didnt stay sad for long..but i was more of angry..for not understanding wats goin on...
and den...
now..
i met De Rozario Muhd Firdaus Samsudin my package of hard and soft ,fierce and gentle at the same time..i have finally mit my character from the books...hehe.. from the start..it was just a simple friendship...ppl say on ur first date u shudnt bring ur date to meet ur friends...but thats wat he exactly did..we went riding..with his tanglin friends..and its not a few 5 ,6 or 7 ppl eh..it was more than a dozen...but it was fun..it was different..ok i shall not go into detail abt wats goin on btwn me and him...but i cudnt be more thankful dat i met him..i cant see myself 5 yrs down the road or 10 w/o him...really i cant..so ni nisha dah merancang eh...harap tuhan yg kat atas tu menentukn yg sama jugak...heehe...