its 2.20 am and im still not asleep..tis wun do..it definitely wun do...ive been on my bed since 1 am and i cudnt sleep..so i tot..wat the hell..mite as well listen to some music..mayb it will help me sleep like sumone singing a lullaby..but nooooo....i ended up singing along wit the song..and i give up..ive been giving up on on much things recently havent i?and so ive decided to stay awake....so i wun wake up late and miss my 8 am revision at bbdc..cos it cost me blardy 58 dollars.im not willing to let tat slip by easily..so yes..im gonna set 2 alarms..one beeing my hp and another my mum..trust me..she's the best wake up alarm u can ever get..it doesnt take much screaming on her part to wake me up..just abit ..her voice cud be dat irritating..but im sure most mums are like dat.. mayb i shud use this time to sort things out ey?things like wat i intend to do..get a job or wat..u see...i haf changed my mind about joining as a prison warden..simply bcos..the comments ive heard from most ppl were mostly negative.ok scrap dat..all the comments were negative.but i'll just go for the interview and see how it is..atleast i wun haf any regrets abt not trying it out kn?so ive set my eyes on spf.ive always had interest for uniform grps..training is not wat i'd be worrying abt..its the shift work..i cant bare giving up tarian la..i cannot..i simply cannot...the very idea of it is already upsetting.my lifestyle wud totally change..den wat wud bcome of me?other than the fact dat i i haf money and a career.but will i be happy?oh why oh why must we grow up...can i stay 18?so weird eh..police and tarian defiitely doesnt go together..haha..