oh my gawd..ive been such a bad child...after a long long while finally, i tot abit more than i shud of parents..how my parents are getting on wit age and how irresponsibe i haf been as a daughter..and tis after i finished with reading a book by cecilia ahern.
its true..that its quite unnerving abt seeing how ur parents gets upset.as supposedly they were the ones to be the strong ones..the guidance ,the one u lean on.and like she said theres more to it..since youngs(kids that is),we use our parents as some sort of measurement for how bad a situation is..wen u fall hard on the ground and u cant figure out if it hurt enuff or nt,u look to ur parents.and if they happen to haf the worried look plastered on their face and rush towards u..u'd just cry seeking attention.if they laff and smack the ground,u'd prolly get up and move on as if nthg had happen tinking dat the fall was nthg.sumtimes u just forget that live itself has to end sumwhere.what with u trying to make some money and tinking that u haf a life to run.everybody does.
i havent been home much lately.i cant help it..i havent been out on a family outing for a very long while..i havent had a family(nvr mind if its proper or not..like sitting nicely on the dining table) for what seems like a decade ago.its rarely i see my whole family sitting down together watchign some funny show on tv laffing over it together..i miss big happy harmony close knitted family.

im having my graduation day tmrw..like yay?no.not reli..im not reli looking forward to it.in fact i dun feel like goin.dun ask me why.i just dun..perhaphs i wun.mayb sumday i'd just regret missing dat day.so it gonna be official im a poly grad.so now..wat do i wan to do?i cant bloody werk all my life in the part time job im in..they over paid me..and so they are cutting my werkin hours..how sucky is dat.looks like my thailand trip has to be postponed.all of a sudden i feel like i need sum extreme life make over.i tink ive sumwat messed it up abit..i shall nt go into detail.but wish i cud turn back time.oh heck..what am i saying..atleast its better than not having a roof on top of ur head or worrying abt putting food in ur belly.sheesh.