Whats written..

2012-01-25T01:53:00.001+08:00

Heartbroken. Again. Hiatus.

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4

2012-01-14T00:54:00.001+08:00

Death has been on my mind this past 2 days..mostly due to the passing of my uncle on my dad side..innalillah..im not close to him..but the fact that death happens too suddenly scares me..it reminds me that people don't just die of old age.. Ever since I started flying, the only fear I have is of not coming home and not being there if anything bad happens.. I pray for the next 2 year of my flying career nothing like that happens..amin.

On a happier note...today has been a fruitful day...package signed. Hopefully my trip to san franciso would be worthwhile.. Tagheure here I come!

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.3

2012-01-14T00:36:00.001+08:00

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.3

2012

2012-01-07T01:12:00.001+08:00

A week has pass and I've yet to come up with a list of resolutions. Hopeless I tell you..hopeless..

A few decisions have been made though!
No1. I'm not getting a new car, instead..I'm going to get a paint job.. Girlfriend needs new clothes yaw...
No2. I'm going to get a pet!
No3. Exercise! Not really concern about losing weight..but more of getting back in shape and hopefully with the increase use of energy, I'll eat more.
No4. I have got to start being a proper lady! No seriously.. I may look all feminine.. But you will be surprise when my true nature kicks in. Lol.
No5. Stop whining about my job. As far as the 1 and a half year left.. I should just make the best of it. Besides what's to complain when you're making good money ey?
No6. Practice and preach narcissism.. Lol.. This way I'll avoid wanting to change anything ie. Wanting to dye my hair or curl it to the point of no return.

Well.. This could very well be my short list of resolutions!

Ouh! Dinner with the girls was awesome. A mother,a wife and a soon to be bride. Nothing beats good company.

2011-12-29T06:56:00.001+08:00

I woke up missing the boyfriend. *scratches head* no idea why and I'm having trouble going back to sleep. Wait, I meant fiancé.. Lol it seems the new title often slips my mind.. But rest assured dear fiancé, never a doubt that u would be mine and forever soon.
10 months.. :)

Of Goodbyes

2011-12-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

Its been a very very long while since i actually wrote a proper entry. I guess i just didnt see a need to pen down my thoughts anymore. The last time i wrote was when i was dating dear fiance, it was more of a reminder to me how dating felt like..very detailed..down to how every gesture made me feel. Reading it again makes me smile.
One of the reason why this entry is made is prolly due to one of the so called event that not exactly mark a change in my life..but affects me in one way or another.

Engagement.

To most, it may seem like a sudden move. To me, it was just right. It wasnt hard, nor was it a hassle or a chore. It just felt right. Everything falls nicely into place, the house, the preparation. Needless to say i believe he was made for me. Insyaallah..amin. Preparations are going well so far. Infact i think im way too "relax" .. I cant wait for the next change in my life. Not the idea of marriage, but more of what i can do after marriage. Like finally leaving the sky, have kids and upgrading myself. The change to be a better muslim, wife, daughter and woman. Amin amin amin. :)
"I praise Allah for sending me you my love, you’ve found your home it’s here with me, and I’m here with you ..Now let me let you know.... You’ve opened my heart I was always thinking that love was wrong... but everything was changed when you came along.." - maher zain

To whom it may concern, congratulations are in order. Your move was rather sudden to..but im sure it was carefully planned. I hope this marks a new friendship. Semoga ke hari pernikahan..
"Ive always been in love with you..i guess you've always known its true..u took my love for granted why oh why..The show is over say goodbye.. " - madonna

And to the one whose on the run..if you're reading this..whatever decision she made was solely hers. Infact come to think of it..i regreted suggesting her to give u benefit of the doubt.. Her misery could have ended sooner..who knows. Whatever happen is your fault. Face it. You did it. You made it happen..no one else to blame.. I just when u fall..u stop dragging ppl down with you. Its time for u to be a man and take the fall on your own and stand up at the end of it all. Stop being the so called "champion" talker..and be a true man.
Making threats? come on...highschool is so 10 years ago.

Not trying to push any buttons..but the very fact that she fears for my safety just irks me.

And you..i appear in your entry once in a while..not in a very good way most times..or sometimes. You have moved on ..i get it. Me visiting your site..has got nothing to do with me still "in love" with you. I left you..for a very clear reason. Reasons justify-able to me. I'm glad u made something of yourself and i wish you all the best. May u find happiness in your own way.

I may be the one who got away or may not be the one who got away. To me, all of u have played a part of educating me what life is about in a subtle or painful way. Now with this, i shall begin everything with a clean slate. No more looking back. Time for me to take that waiting hand and walk into the future with. Exciting much!

Too many weddings too little time.

2011-11-19T05:42:00.001+08:00

My upcoming weekends are chocked up with bells..i have pile of eedding invitations in my room and even got myself confuse as to who it belongs to.. to celebrate her big day, instead of the usual hens night..we decided to have a photoshoot instead..this was taken from my camera..bad picture quality cause the girls doesn't know how to stay still..hopefully the one from the professional turns out awesome..

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.1

2011-09-27T03:35:00.000+08:00

In 2 weeks time.. :)

It's like eating Royce white chocolate.. Melts on your tongue.. So exquisite..

But for those with bitter ends, may hope resides within u..
I pray that u find strength to get by this dark hours..

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-08-02T01:18:00.000+08:00

My hero!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-07-25T10:48:00.000+08:00

I should stop torturing myself this way. Let go of the first memories.. I know I am happy.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-07-19T12:10:00.000+08:00

You will never figure it out.
That's something for me to laugh about.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-06-20T11:16:00.000+08:00

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-05-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

Gotta keep occupied!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-05-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

Oh 2012, pls come quick!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-05-08T04:15:00.002+08:00

Remember your first love? Funny how many years back they were once the world to you. And with those memories i hold dear, i really do wish you all the happiness.

-DRMF

2011-05-05T17:31:00.001+08:00

"For a useless son, u give urself to much credit."

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-04-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

The only reason I'm doing this , is because I'm extremely bored.. 1hr 45mins ago I have 22 ppl before me.. Now, 16..bah! I hate going to the doctor.. Unfortunately, I'm genuinely sick and desperately need the medication. Why or why??? I would pay a hundred for immediate consultation. Or maybe even more... It doesn't help that my car smells of fish after yesterday's BBQ session.

Why it bothers me? Cos I'm waiting in my car till it's my turn.. There's not even a seat left at the clinic... Terrible terrible terrible. I want to go home.... :(

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-04-14T04:57:00.000+08:00

All is well and dandy. Couldn't be happier! :))

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-04-12T04:56:00.001+08:00

Can't wait for what's going to come!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-02-01T19:20:00.001+08:00

Completely random.. But the drive route I took to pick dee reminded me of someone.. A man I used to love.
And if it was not for him I wouldn't have learnt the biggest lesson in life. And if not for the biggest lesson in life I wouldn't be where I am today. Torn but stronger. U must think this is some emo moment. Lol. I assure u it's not. There was once when someone thought I was going thru mid life crisis. Where that came from, I have no idea.. Or it prolly was a joke.. Not funny. Heh.
Back to topic, I was just thinking that maybe things are suppose to be the way it is.. As the saying goes, when one door closes another open. I found that door, the only problem I have is mending bridges. I don't abhor people or hate them usually. When I do, I can't undo it. My only solution to that, avoid them. Everyone says bury the hatchet. Easier done when a sincere apology is extended. Very easy to relate to don't u think? :)

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-01-26T13:46:00.001+08:00

I survived the start of the year! Had a wonderful time in Rome.. And looking forward to my so called last holiday to the resort! 10 days yaw.. And I'm so intending to rot.. Woohooo!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

It's almost over!

2010-12-29T20:24:00.001+08:00

Hello hello! I can't wait to usher the new year in. Start afresh. Leave the past. Though I doubt much will change. But since I'm in my mids, I'm gonna rush several things. Hopefully I stop procrastinating. Bestie 1 is getting married on the 1st. Nuisance date really, but hey! It's her happy day and I'm glad she is getting married to her first love! Amin! Then it's a work/holiday trip to Rome with ezie darling. My long 10days leave! Hopefully rotting at some resort and then another dear friend getting engage! See! So many good positive things going on. A good start to the year...

And honestly, I've never been this carefree since a long time. Things have been going great for me, alhamdullilah.

Crap. Stuck in traffic now and extremely hungry. Still skinny, I need more Bangkok trip. To gain weight!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-09-22T04:26:00.001+08:00

I am a fool.
I don't know what to do.
I hate to think about it.
Boo me.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-09-13T04:23:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for my birthday!
I wish just by thinking about it, I get there.

Anyways.. I went fishing today. Like for the first time in my entire life. Caught a giant anchovy (atleast that us what I call it) and an eel (which I kept asking if it was unagi). I mean seriously, it was really really disgusting. Got a picture of it but I guess it be up on fb. It was slimy.. Like super slimy. So much so that when it climb it's way up the the fishing line by tying itself into a knot, my fisherman had to cut of the line and make a new one.
We threw the eel back into the water btw. Though I think it was kinda injured getting itself tangled.
Other than that, raya had been tiring and boring as usual except gor the first day. I receive one packet today though. An
Improvement to last year. Lol. Ok I should sleep. Night night!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-09-02T15:20:00.001+08:00

Sick. And not in the mood for work at all. :(

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-09-01T15:54:00.001+08:00

I miss international seafood market can?!

Hee.. Happy as a chippo!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-08-28T14:09:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling abit off this weekend. I'm not sure why. Prolly due to the fact that ive been grounded for a week and knowing im flying again Sunday. :(
And also knowing one of my friends have left the blue sky. Jealous much.
But i've come up with a plan, and for awhile..im going to focus on that. Distracts me from all else.

Tossing and turning

2010-08-25T06:12:00.001+08:00

So I'm suppose to be getting ready for work in 45 mins time.. No sleep again.. Getting really unhealthy, but I'll manage.
Was thinking about the things that have passed in this 2 years. I must say it was one hell of a ride. I am however hoping to purge any negativity. Discard it and never hear of it ever again. I know I owe several person an apology. Overdue but never too late. And I also know of people who owe me an apology but, I'm nice. Lol. I don't need it. Infact I don't need those ppl in my life. They are what I call insignificant and plays no role in my life nor have any effect on me dead or alive.
I've never been bitter and I hope never to start.
I've seen rainbow, 2 days consecutively.. Literally. I hope that's a good sign. Or just the law of science. Lol.

I had a wonderful time today.. But u were never out of my mind. :)
Good morning everyone! I shall try for a 20mins nap!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-08-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

I hate growing up.

The big m.

2010-08-13T02:34:00.000+08:00

It's a bright sunny day!
I miss home.
I miss Asian food.
I miss lunch with dee.
I miss hearing your voice.
I miss that hug.
I miss mums sambal telur udang.
I simply miss miss.
I want to go home!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-08-02T18:36:00.001+08:00

Pink roses. :)

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-07-29T02:10:00.001+08:00

Lesson 1 learned. :)

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-07-28T15:59:00.001+08:00

I wish u had not done that.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Skidesu!

2010-07-26T17:49:00.001+08:00

I am one happy nishy.

Apart from the fourth hokage, I've got u to be thankful for. :)

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-07-26T13:03:00.001+08:00

Off to lunch with dee!!! Weee!!!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Oh weekend.

2010-07-25T12:58:00.001+08:00

It's a dissappointing Sunday.. :(
One. I'm extremely hungry.
Two. I've no plans for today.
Three. I won't be seeing u anytime soon. :((

I can't wait for the month to be over!

On another note, I thought of u today. Infact it has been a habit everyday. But today, things are going to change. You have found another and I refuse to know anything more of her just in case I bump into her at work. I'm kinda convinced that she would know alot of things about me. I hope I'm wrong.

Ok. That's the last of it. Fullstop.

Speaking of which, I still haven't gotten my ps3! Pffft.
Played Left for dead 2 on pc yesterday with mr bodyguard while waiting for the movie to start and im telling u.. I miss playing games! He was extremely patient tho despite me feeding myself to the zombie most times. Lol. Anywhos ong bak 3 was surprisingly funny. I laughed alot yesterday.. Thus maybe why I'm dissapointed today? See!!! I did mention this to him. What a coincidence. I'm feeling international seafood right now. I miss that place. I want my mushrooms!

And pyu, dee.. I miss u like crazy... :((

Oh.. And I've gain weight!
True or false?

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-07-07T10:37:00.002+08:00

"we use to talk on the phone alot last time."

Lol, honestly i dont remember this moments.
I get people pm-ing me saying that.
Not one but several..is that kind of like a pick up line or something?

anywhose ive decided to use this blog again. i figured deleting t would be a waste...too much memories.
and im quite certain due to certain episodes in the past some would know when to meddle in and when not to. :)

on a brighter note!
im eating again! finally growing some fats.
And in no time at all i'll get my curves back..no matter how little it is. heh

2010-06-26T14:48:00.001+08:00

the end where it begins.

2010-06-25T16:39:00.001+08:00

The last bit.

.Now, I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

.But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

.Now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

.And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.

2010-04-30T04:32:00.002+08:00

Dear Cuppy,

It has been a crazy ride for the past few years.
Despite all the memories we've shared.
I see the need to shut u down due to unnecessary tails wagging.
I dont mean any harm nor do i intentionally cause worldly destruction.
Like all man, i merely exist.
To cry when im sad.
To smile when in joy.
And to vent when im mad.
And like some of us who enjoys pain and bask in others misery.
I for one, could not care less about other people's life but my own.
Lol.Not entirely true.
So here we are again.
The last entry.

Yours Truly,
Nish

2010-04-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

To produce each week Sunday newspaper, 500000 trees must be cut down.
So I say don't read papers at all. Infact none of us should be educated. Only brings war and greed for power. Let's all eat grass and sleep all day.
Kwang kwang. Anywhose.
Ezrin if you're reading this. U should watch personal preference kdrama. It's kinda nice. Not fully completed though the episodes. And anybody knows when the next fringe and vampire diaries season is coming?

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-04-13T16:47:00.000+08:00

U who's doing this. U suck.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Say no to terrorist.

2010-04-01T07:48:00.000+08:00

Lo and behold. Nothing much have changed.
Other than the retard getting retarder, if there was such a word or even a possibility. And the ignorant painting a trophy.

Pfft.
Yes.
I did a boob job.
Didn't help much though.
Due to insufficient fats, too bad.
No.. I doubt I enjoy having butt crack under my chin.
No siree.

Good morning monkeys.
Have u been fooled today?

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-02-05T15:55:00.001+08:00

Hiatus.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-30T05:05:00.002+08:00

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet.

I’m sorry for the times I left mum home
I was on the road and she was alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to work
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was you and family
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my mum
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not home
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the only mum in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my mum

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

.....

Sorry for the things that i put your wife through
And all the things i didn’t know what to do
Sorry that she had to read what i wrote
Doing what i did without a proof.
And you would rather be home without a care
As one big family with love and bliss
Even though i treated you like shit

I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your wife had to go thru this
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your/my life turned out this way
I’m sorry that the rest had to be kaypo

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to provoke me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I am really sorry..
I’m sorry for the words that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have her way
So her mummy would tell her the name.
I’m sorry for getting her daddy mad.
I hope he understands its just sad
How siblings could be this bad..
At 23 and she admits, and say
She and neighbour would take the blame
Still its not disgracing your name
He just a man trying to entertain
Because I love my family I’ll take that blame

errr..not so good at this.sheesh.

2010-01-29T13:01:00.000+08:00

In everyones eye, I have always been that little girl who don't drink,smoke,club nor anything much at all. Back then, I was usually home reasonably early to my parents standard.
But that was then..when I was doing a 9-5. After work I had my dance training ,pretty much everyday.. On weekend would be performance day. I couldn't afford to come home too late( and this i mean after midnight) knowing I have to wake up at 6 in the morning and drive to work.yes I still have to leave home early due to the traffic. Those days I usually end up in bed somewhere around 1 or 2am in the morning.
Even then I had my parents nagging at me. Lol. No surprise there.

Now,my working hours differ from time to time. Mostly I end up working overnight. My sleeping time?even worst. It differs so bad to the everchanging gmt. So if I'm sleepy I sleep. Though I usually try to stay awake at night to let my body adapt to working time. This way I won't be sleepy at work.

As I grow, I changed. Personality, character and lifestyle. As cliche as it sounds, the world is my oyster and what better time than to use it while I'm at my prime to experience what life has to offer. Only then when I'm aging an wrinkly, I could look back and say.. I've done that. Nothing beats first hand experience them hearing stories of another.

This is my life.
I do not talk nor do I analyse the life of others.
They have their reasons as I have mine.
I make mistakes along the way. I learn from it.
So everyone has a different path, I'm sure somewhere in your closet, some of you had been to jail for a crime, some used to be a party goer, some used to have a one night stand, some used to have impregnated someone or had an abortion. Everyone made mistakes, so who are we to judge others really?

Being concern and advising is a different matter. Who should be responsible for that? Parents. No one else. Unless someone comes to u, then are you free to state your opinion.

War is never something to be proud of. Something I've learn first hand.Casualties,unavoidable. Why do u think countries have political agreement and such?

I digress.

My point is.I'm not a little girl anymore. I would stand up for my rights. A dog will bark if provoked. So will man.

Geez.. It's been awhile since I've had serious entries. Lol.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

Alfie convince me that no portal to hell is going to appear anytime soon on the walls of my room. He is right.

Going through a rough patch only makes you stronger.
I know many out there is waiting for a chance to tell me,"I told you so."
But what if that didn't happen? Should I be laughing at you instead?
Thus, with this being said I think it is safe for the general population to not dip their fingers into any bowl but their own. But who am I to kid? I can't stop people from talking can I? Lol.

Sigh. Forgiveness. It takes alots of courage. One feat even I had trouble with.

That aside...Pyuk!! U have been missed. I need to be surrounded by your holiness again.. And dee.. Though I still hate you for your sarcasm and untactful opinions..I hope you're doing well now..we should all meet up soon..there's so much to tell!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-28T18:09:00.001+08:00

Jeng jeng jeng

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-22T13:31:00.001+08:00

I don't know if it was also our right to be angry.
You know what anger can do.
It blinds us so much so that we're willing to hurt others just to alleviate some of our own.

But as I mentioned nothing in the virtual is all real, made up for others entertainment purposes. Whatever written was an intention to spite.

Yes it was wrong and we should have known better.

I'm sorry.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-22T13:23:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-21T06:50:00.004+08:00

i guess most of us are jut asking for it.
but thats beside the point.
isnt it pretty obvious that certain things written in the virtual world are just not real?
take this for example,
"he touched his balls afraid his gf might accidentally kicked it with her right foot..he turned towards her and licked off the saliva that drips down her cheek..doesnt taste that fresh but its all worth it."
and so this person claims thats how close she can recall.
yes..i have named her "she".
it doesnt take a 6 year old to realise that this entry are not literal meanings. oh wait maybe i should give u more credit than that, perhaphs a 7 year old.
who in the right mind would lick a dried saliva of someone's cheek? would u?
so perhaphs this 7 year old tries to be a little bit more complex and read behind the paragraph and comes up with an idea that it could mean that this guy probably is saying its all worth it due to the fact that they had one crazy night. Hence the part why the girl is drooling?tired maybe? for gods sake. pls dont be so retarded. who the fuck in the right mind would go around saying "hey i just screwed my gf and it was awesome!"
"he woke up in the morning with his gf beside him".
pfft..have no idea do u that the gf is the alarm clock?
ever occured that the gf upon seeing the bf fast asleep decided not to disturb him thus laid by his bed playing games on her hp innocently is wrongly accused by some mofo who probably with a figment of her imagination convinced herself of knowing what happen the entire night and perhapsh the day after just by reading daily blogs? we're not miley cyrus u know who goes around twittering about every single thing she tasted see or even smell.
wow. u must be really bored woman. to be reading blogs after blogs after blogs. not working huh? or is that the only form of way for u to feel somewhat intelligent? being able to read?
if you were even close to being an adult, trust me..instead of going straight to the motherboard, you would have atleast clarified and talked to me directly about it..what? am i not capable of speech?or are u not capable of that?even a makcik wouldnt bluntly said what was being told..proper makciks would have been tactful and not put things so bluntly the way u did.hmm..i guess u already know what kind of makcik YOU would turn out like. Having a low IQ is excusable..but EQ? hmm.. your life must be pretty depressing.
You know why you do it dont you? With an excuse of only looking out for me, or just doing it to help. you really really really just want to see some drama. the fact that you really have nothing to do..knowing that youre useless at home..u want to feel like in some way u have change the world. so u thought "lets get involve in this, cos i think she needs it". you prolly deluded yourself into thinking that you were the cream of the crop..the angelic one. never did anything wrong. experienced and wise.

if u came close to even being concern about me, seriously everyone in the right mind would know..by what was being said..it does not only jeopardise the relationship i have with my mum but also the love of my life.

was that the ultimate motive?
u just cant see ppl being happier than u are?
irked about the fact that i probably earn 3 times what youre earning?
or are u even earning at all. lol

"desperate to mark his territory"?
i am his gf. what other marks does he need?
im not a cheater,
that could be the likes of you,
thus prolly u need to be marked.
if i need any markings to be done, that would be in a form of tattoo of his name..permanent and for life. no man/spouse/husband/partner can live with the fact that i have some other guys name(not theirs) tattooed on any parts of my body.

is this some chronic disease? idle people trying to analyse blogs and virtual materials?
u know..there are literature books that you can read to release all this brain energy that u could actually put to good use or is that abit too complex for u?
lol..and you call youself a muslim?
talking behind my back.
do yourself a favour pls.
find aother hobby..besides reading blogs.
u can start by masturbating.it relieves stress.
yes pls take all of that seriously.

no guts to confront me now do u?
realise the blunder u made now do u?
good.
shrivel away like u always do.
hide in that little corner of yours
keep your head under the basket
with brains as tiny as yours u need to hide it

2010-01-20T02:01:00.001+08:00

One thing to solve it all. The big M.

2010-01-12T00:08:00.001+08:00

It's been almost a year..but this is where it ends.
He's leaving.
And I can't stop him.
Goodbye neighbour.
Sigh.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-11T02:27:00.000+08:00

Was I the best thing that happen to you?

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-09T15:28:00.000+08:00

Cirque du freak pls!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-07T12:44:00.003+08:00

Its effin 6.30 am here and i havent slept since ..like since the whole day.pfft..once again fcuk up timing.i'll prolly feel sleepy in about 3 to 4 hours time...by then it be daylight here.infact it already is.sheesh.

oh and did u notice the new template? duh!
abit too late..but something new for the start of a new year...

10 months going now.
love u Larling!
my ling ling.hee

this was posted late because of the sucky internet connection here.

oouuuhhhh...
im so used to the fast paced life in sing sing..that im already bored of this place...somebody get me out of here!!!

2010-01-04T06:34:00.001+08:00

It is days such as this when the weather is fitting and pleasant and I'm still not able to sleep that I start playing scenarios in my head.

What if I run away from home?
In my head it would be a bad idea because deep down I know no matter what I still need family..and as a daughter I still have responsibilities.though I must say I'm not doing well at all..

What if I quit my job as do a 9 to 5.
I'd prolly pick dancing up again or continue studying to pass my time...end up financially tight but still manageable..

What if I go all pious and pray 5 times a day without fail?
I make my parents go wary and suspect me of volunteering for suicide bombing... And prolly have to quit my job too..end up financially tight..feel restraint gir the rest of my life and end up marrying an imam. Yawn*

Having my baby leave me.
I'd die. No doubt. Not in the literal sense but u get the idea. I don't even want to go there..

Crippled by an accident.
Well..I hope the ones that I depend on would walk with me..else just make do lor..

Won lottery of a million dollar.
Get myself a house,get married,invest some to make more money, and if I feel generous,I'd buy food, slippers and clothes to donate them to African kids.no money donation.pointless.you don't know where they end up..

Bump into the bf exes.
Pls no. Dissapear. I believe exes and current shouldn't get along..it's morally wrong.lol

These are just storylines. In my head there's a whole episode of dialogue and play acting going on. Lol.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-04T03:56:00.001+08:00

Ho to ka Jo
Sigh.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-01-02T05:17:00.001+08:00

Lol.clubbing in Nanjing is no different from sing sing... I expected it to be more smoky here but I was wrong.. The music was however spooky but the dj neverending to complete the rythm. Heh

Lol this was drafted while I was in Nanjing.though incomplete.oh well I'm too lazy to continue..
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2009-12-19T07:22:00.001+08:00

This entry has nothing to do with racism.

I had this conversation with a steward about typical races. Him being Indian and me feeling pyschic,I asked..

Me: you don't do Indian girls do you?

Indian guy: no why?

Me: I thought so. You don't look the type.(yes I know, abit of stereotyping here..but hey we all are guilty of it!And don't u dare shake your head) Chinese then?-I got a wee bit more curious..lol what do u expect? Sitting down for landing and taxing is very boring.. Especially when u do it every single day.

Indian guy: yeah. Actually i started out dating an Indian. That was my first then it was 20% chinese then a chindian and then Chinese.I realise the typical Indian is not suited to me. The whole dancing thing and all..

Me:(wah!!!! I did abit of back to the old poly days here)

Anyways my point is.. We started discussing and trying to figure out about the typical stereotypes.

For example,
The minahs and matreps are often associated with tappered pants and blond hair, tattoos,guitars,cheap vodka and jiwang under the void deck,of mass orgies, hostess,gangsterism,drugs and something close to prostitution.(they don't usually like to see it that way) Can u think of anything more?

While the typical Indians are paired with shiny jeans, trying to hard to be hip hop dancers feeling ala ala people of the dark skin,tailed hair,dyed prints tshirt for ladies and bright neon coloured jerseys for the males,and extremely strong perfume.

And the fair people..oh this is classic, the long tailed combs, feeler fringes, blond hair or any other shades that is quite a put off,public nuisance( infact all of the above are also public nuisance),gangsterism,money laundering?I can't think of much..

Pardon the long list for the first category..cause as much as I like to deny it, I'm better socialized with them lot then the rest. Well that's a history I shall not indulge you with.not that I was ever part of them. I don't even know how to talk to them! Not a pleasant experience if you ask me.

But then again most of the things I wrote could be biased and influence by the stories I hear and the things I see..solely my opinion.feel free to correct and educate me.lol

But all of them have one thing in common. They travel in groups.. And without fail is involve in a riot or a fight or two.

I wonder what the typical mat and ahbengs of the Caucasian are like..lol.. And what do they call the Indian ahbengs anyway?

Again I don't see any link to my Chinese gf conversation with that steward with this topic. I realise I tend to jump the board sometimes.

Well atleast they made a name for themselves tho not an honourable one..the rest of us? We could have lived and be ordinary and plain and almost nonexistent to others.

Damn..I must be really bored. Nope still can't sleep!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2009-12-19T06:44:00.000+08:00

December comes too soon.
in a blink of an eye and here comes twentyten
noooooooooooooooooooooo.......
another year of me not knowing what i want to do with my life...
was i ever this clueless?
or was i always this clueless?
i remembered having a purpose in life..
the key word here is remembered.
seems like a part of my memory has been erased.
wonder what that was all about.

right.
i need to have a list of resolutions.
question 1.
do i really need a degree or can i just move up with experience?
a degree itself is not enough..so should i even dip my fingers in it?
or should i compete in a different mode?

sigh
it 7am..and i still cant sleep.
once again.aukland u suck..i think my body thinks its 12 noon..

2009-12-15T00:28:00.001+08:00

I highly doubt my brain is functioning.. My cells needs to be awaken. It feels like years since I've been using my brain.. I even contemplate on getting myself some a maths assessment book just so I could work on it and In hopes of salvaging what's left of my intelligence.. Or so I thought. My youth is slowly dissipating and that's not something I would embrace.

Oh mother nature please have mercy on me. Not so soon. Not so soon. Don't let things just pass me by..

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2009-12-12T05:40:00.000+08:00

1 down.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2009-11-24T06:47:00.002+08:00

karachi-0352
sing sing-0652

it feels like i havent seen the sky since forever..this country only serves me as a cage...ive seen these four walls too much that i seem to believe that ive memorise its architecture so well..0_0
sigh..
i miss my booboo..
and good food.
nothing seems to taste good here.
and despite having a big bed and 7 pillows, im not sleeping as much as i think i would..

2010

2009-11-20T21:59:00.001+08:00

November 20th..started with a rainy day.duck and chic rice.uneventful but a lovely day nonetheless. The future makes me smile. :)

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

The passing clouds

2009-11-19T20:07:00.001+08:00

U missed.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

What I should know

2009-11-19T19:14:00.001+08:00

It takes one and one to get a picture..when u put the puzzle together..what the mind doesn't know the heart feels..

Even if it's for an ending I still need to know
The present might be wrong,but the past tells it all.
Ignorance is bliss but knowledge gives you security.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Weekend in Sydney

2009-11-13T19:02:00.001+08:00

Friday night here is quite different..the mature ones all dress up in sex heels and flaunting their goodies.laughing at something their companion say..hardly a sight back in sing sing..I thunk night life here could be pretty awesome..

I miss you baby..wish you were home to webcam with me..

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Tuesday

2009-11-10T13:49:00.001+08:00

"your uniform is not ready come tomorrow"

"($$@"@(:??!!,;;!&("

And they kept postponing my collection date.damn angry can?

So I left home thinking to go cwp..I have to go somewhere..sitting home makes me lifeless and depressed.just as I was about to enter the carpark,I made a right and change my mind. Civic loomed ahead..that's where I go,I thought.library on a rainy day definitely sounds good..unfortunately my hand disobeyed..I ended up at home..sigh.

Guess it's nish stay home day again!
Oh well..I'd prolly sleep later so I'd be fresh at night..and I'm pretty sure tomorrow will be a working day for me..pls pls give me kl.

That was a happy yesterday..
Thank you baby.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Homie

2009-11-08T23:31:00.001+08:00

And of late,I've been staying home as compared to my late night frenzy but 8 months ago..I miss those days and at times I do wish I could relive them..not that I can't but with the presence of a special someone,I'd rather stay home and spend some quiet time..mundane?not when your feeling cosy..I've had my share of parties,late night picnics,girls night out and god knows what else.all of which had still kept me rather decent if you compare with girls from "your" history.lol!

Gee I must be bored to be rambling about such random stuff..I miss my booboo.

Love you.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Of reputation

2009-11-08T23:22:00.001+08:00

And so it is..most parents are big on reputation..do this they say..do that they say..but if your really ask,who exactly are we doing it for?but with tongues wagging,should actions be taken?why is it so easy to say when no help is rendered?

2009-11-04T02:04:00.002+08:00

just great.i came to london unprepared.
have no idea how im going to go out.
no winter coat nor a jacket thick enough.
no boots
and no long sleeved top

but wait
doesnt that give me a reason to get a jacket from primark?
lol

so whats around the corner.
more surprises.
even this is abit big for me.

2009-10-29T18:18:00.000+08:00

right.no wishlist this yr.
i feel like eating grapes.

2009-10-22T18:24:00.002+08:00

i stayed home today when my intentions was to run some errants..like paying bills and such..
but..home it was..reading and watching dramas online..
honestly if u ask me theres nothing i look forward to then waiting for my baby to come back home.
sigh.
though what i wish is not the case these days..
like i said..wishes are not made for human.
i simply just want time alone to spend..
nothing much.
just time.
even that is not allowed by society standards.
im looking forward to the day when i can look forward to coming home to him.
his my primary.i have to admit.
i love him to bits like i love no other before.
bewitched.and id do anything for him.
he doesnt know it though..
oh well..

2009-10-15T20:35:00.003+08:00

Wow..time really flies..and im already turning 23 this year..still not too bad..im in my early twenties..i cant even call myself a teenager...

So what do i want this year?
ive gotten myself an iphone as a birthday gift.
and if u really really ask me..i actually do want a new job.
sigh.

i miss alfie.
wish he was here with me.

i just realise something..i was looking thru profile and pictures of people on blogs and facebook..and then i saw the year they were born..!
and guess what..im older than most of them...but but but..i look younger than ALL of them.LOL
must be genes..or must be me not wanting to grow up.hehe
thats somehow cheers me up..looking young.

2009-09-27T11:07:00.000+08:00

alright..thats it.back to work.

2009-09-21T11:29:00.002+08:00

Salam Lebaran to all.
Apologies to those smses that was unreplied to...
I was trying to avoid the sms congestion..
Anyways...Maaf zahir dan batin to those who are reading this..
Ive no idea who i have done wrong to for i havent seen many ppl for quite awhile..but nevertheless as per year, minta maaf kalau tersilap kata.

pyuk!
dee! thanks for ur sweet note..u know i know we all know what we are to each other..between us..really..any wrongdoings is automatically forgiven.but jgnlah sampai berrepeat..
lets all look forward to a brighter future with the other half! lol
ok..see u guys soon!

2009-09-19T10:58:00.000+08:00

the eve.

2009-09-18T04:01:00.002+08:00

that oh-so-familliar face shamelessly joined to the one that was spat on.
that naked shoulder on the bed in a room after a rendezvous.
that simple gesture that belong to another and has never been mine.

things that i shouldn't have known..
i'm having trouble sleeping.
sigh

the scorpio syndrome.
she who thinks she could handle it.
she was wrong.

she will try to sleep on it and hopes that come sunrise, she'd totally forget about the whole thing.
come to worst.she'd just have nightmare and carry the image in her dreams.
wish me luck fairies..

booboo needs a peace of mind.

2009-09-16T17:15:00.002+08:00

i woke up today with a heavy heart knowing that i'll be leaving for work soon.
Now here i am in Ho Chin Mihn with 5 hours to waste.
Leaving the bf while he is in deep slumber makes me sad.

Now me bf is sad too..

Cho chad!

2009-09-15T16:40:00.002+08:00

Was watching puppies on youtube..and after the recent puppy feeding at the void deck, ive decided that i really would adopt one...
Me baby loves dogs..so thats a green light!
but of cos this is only possible the day i move out.

i even made plans to hide the puppy when the ultimate one comes around..like..muzzle them and leave them next door.
-which brings me to the next point..getting friendly neighbours preferably non muslim and who loves dogs..and does not have kids to spoil our plan.
okay scratch muzzling them..whats the point since they're already next door..

next is to err drug them so they sleep.lol.
is that illegal?

oh prat..i only came up with those ideas.so much for brainstorming.
im hungry.
selamat berbuka everyone!

and i on leave soon! yay! super deep duper yay..i miss being so free..

2009-09-11T19:59:00.000+08:00

ive come to realise how harmful jealousy is..
its an awfully strong emotions that pushes a person to behave rather unpleasantly..

it seems so "secondary school", but i guess some people just cant help it.
sigh.

so ive met ezrin, my police friends and my dancemates.
up next..my poly friends,westcoast peeps like hopeless already..my gentarasa friends if possible..my cousins also havent..haaa
so many ppl so little time.

i know..im just bored.
me booboo is at work and me at home..me sad sad..no hug.
me mish me booboo
me cho chad!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

Call me typical, but i cant wait for Gossip Girl season 3.
who doesnt love drama? i mean when ur not directly involve that is.
I miss school.sigh

2009-08-29T00:55:00.003+08:00

I didnt manage to find the fallen..heh.
But i got burnt instead.
Dessert is no joke.

2009-08-23T03:22:00.000+08:00

The credit card bill came for this month,
and it is definitely bad news.
2k++! ho boy..some serious control needs to be done here.
Time to hold the reign in check.
Sheesh.

First Ramadhan wasnt so bad.
Dont get me started on the many hypocrite Muslims whom i served onboard.
Wearing songkok haji, holding a tasbir..sigh
Got me abit annoyed..spoil market only..
Asked me if it halal some more..

Oh..Happy fasting people!

2009-08-19T18:27:00.000+08:00

got caught sneaking.lol
life is funny.
throws u a punch when u least expect it.
but humans are smart.
trained to manouvre and practise reflexes.
oh well
good times

2009-08-15T01:59:00.003+08:00

im finally to my last day in dubai..thank god for that..this time around it seems to be taking ages for days to pass...
prolly due to me being sick..and me being away for far too long..seems like ive been away for almost a month...

sigh.
i wish i was already home.
but thats alright..distance makes the heart grow fonder..and reunion would be sweet.
me miss me kookoo...

BABY!!!ME MISH YOU LIKE CWAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY...
ME CHO CHO CHAD!!!!!
EMKKKKKKK!!!!!

2009-08-11T18:52:00.002+08:00

its official.im sick.

and i still have 6 more days to go..

shit.i took a shower in hope to cool the body..but now its giving me a headache.

the temperature is still safe..running 37.5 after my shower...

been drinking lots of plain water but the throat is not being kind to me.

contemplating on taking this medicine i got from houston months ago.but its going to knock mme out and im only going to go work groggy..na-ah..not cool.

sigh.

one mistake after another..see..

pampering urself in an unhealthy manner does nt work when ur upset..u just feel worst.

2009-08-11T13:58:00.003+08:00

great just great..thanks to y whipped cream im offically with a sore throat..half a voice..and an itch that makes me want to stuff my fist in my mouth to reach the throat.
aaahhhhh..

2009-08-10T18:52:00.002+08:00

im extremely bitter and depressed today..
and ive only got myself to blame..

i tried cheering myself up by getting a whole big bottle of whipped cream which now at the same time i am gobbling.im a monster with junks.
i thought it would help.i was wrong.
seems like chocolate is not helping either.
and i wonder where this bundle of emotions is coming from..

it sucks feeling this way..
especially when u try so hard to turn it ard..
i wish i had sleeping pills to pass the day..
and its only 15oohrs.
WTF?!
sigh...
i can swear all day.
i wish i had friends over to spent time with.

SIGH.SIGH.SIGH.SIGH

and u know what? its true..sighing doesnt help one bit.
fuck.

2009-08-10T06:36:00.002+08:00

Insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless (whether in a rational or an irrational manner).

A person who is insecure lacks confidence in their own value and capability, lacks trust in themselves or others, or has fears that a present positive state is temporary and will let them down and cause them loss or distress by "going wrong" in the future.

This is not to be confused with humility, which involves recognising one's failings but still maintaining a healthy dose of self-confidence. Insecurity is not an objective evaluation of one's ability but an emotional interpretation, as two people with the same capabilities may have entirely different levels of insecurity.

Insecurity may cause shyness, paranoia and social withdrawal, or alternatively it may encourage compensatory behaviors such as arrogance, aggression, or bullying, a principle enshrined in the phrase "all bullies are cowards." Many people suffer a period of insecurity during puberty, which gives rise to a lot of the stereotypical behaviors of adolescents.

Insecurity has many effects in a person's life. There are several levels of it. It nearly always causes some degree of isolation as a typically insecure person withdraws from people to some extent. The greater the insecurity, the higher the degree of isolation. Insecurity is often rooted in a person's childhood years. Like offense and bitterness, it grows in layered fashion, often becoming an immobilising force that sets a limiting factor in the person's life. Insecurity robs by degrees; the degree to which it is entrenched equals the degree of power it has in the person's life.

As insecurity can be distressing and feel threatening to the psyche, it can often be accompanied by a controlling personality type or avoidance, as psychological defence mechanisms.

Insecurity can be overcome.^{[citation needed]} It takes time and patience and a willingness to believe each person (and specifically oneself) is in fact of innate value.^{[citation needed]} The first of Erikson's stages of psychosocial development details the challenge of finding security and learning to trust one's self and environment.

//wikipedia//

seems like work needs to be done

2009-08-09T23:18:00.002+08:00

Its has only been hours and im already wishing to be in the arms of the neighbour...
and to think i have 7 more days to go..
it seems like the start of a bad week..
firstly..i spilled hot water all over the floor due to my clumsiness...thus having have to go down and get myself another bottle,
second..the aircon was giving me problems..and it was so effin humid..i simply had to call the front desk and get help..
thirdly..my bowels is giving me problem..prolly due to me eating a range of junks..
fourthly..im missing my booboo badly yet my internet connection here sucks like hell...
sigh
life is unfair.
doesnt help that the heat is giving me a headache..

2009-08-09T00:46:00.002+08:00

...
my last few hours in sing sing is spent doing this..
i make it sound like im dying or something..
woops..
i know...exageration,drama..but thats just me pretending to be me..

boogies..cant sleep.annoying.

2009-08-07T03:29:00.000+08:00

Someone told me i could be anorexic...so i googled it..

Anorexia nervosa is a psychiatric illness that describes an eating disorder characterized by extremely low body weight and body image distortion with an obsessive fear of gaining weight. Individuals with anorexia nervosa are known to control body weight commonly through the means of voluntary starvation, excessive exercise, or other weight control measures such as diet pills or diuretic drugs. While the condition primarily affects adolescent females approximately 10% of people with the diagnosis are male. [1] Anorexia nervosa, involving neurobiological, psychological, and sociological components[2], is a complex condition that can lead to death in the most severe cases.

The term anorexia is of Greek origin: a (α, prefix of negation), n (ν, link between two vowels) and orexis (ορεξις, appetite), thus meaning a lack of desire to eat.[3]

"Anorexia nervosa" is frequently shortened to "anorexia" in the popular media. This is technically incorrect, as the term "anorexia" used separately refers to the medical symptom of reduced appetite (which therefore is distinguishable from anorexia nervosa in being non-psychiatric).

To be diagnosed as having anorexia nervosa, according to the DSM-IV-TR, a person must display:

1. Refusal to maintain body weight at or above a minimally normal weight for age and height : Weight loss leading to maintenance of body weight <85% of that expected or failure to make expected weight gain during period of growth, leading to body weight less than 85% of that expected.
2. Intense fear of gaining weight or becoming fat, even though under weight.
3. Disturbance in the way in which one's body weight or shape is experienced, undue influence of body weight or shape on self-evaluation, or denial of the seriousness of the current low body weight.
4. The absence of at least three consecutive menstrual cycles (amenorrhea) in women who have had their first menstrual period but have not yet gone through menopause (postmenarcheal, premenopausal females).

Furthermore, the DSM-IV-TR specifies two subtypes:

* Restricting Type: during the current episode of anorexia nervosa, the person has not regularly engaged in binge-eating or purging behavior (that is, self-induced vomiting, or the misuse of laxatives, diuretics, or enemas). Weight loss is accomplished primarily through dieting, fasting, or excessive exercise.
* Binge-Eating Type or Purging Type: during the current episode of anorexia nervosa, the person has regularly engaged in binge-eating OR purging behavior (that is, self-induced vomiting, or the misuse of laxatives, diuretics, or enemas).

The ICD-10 criteria are similar, but in addition, specifically mention

1. The ways that individuals might induce weight-loss or maintain low body weight (avoiding fattening foods, self-induced vomiting, self-induced purging, excessive exercise, excessive use of appetite suppressants or diuretics).
2. Certain physiological features, including "widespread endocrine disorder involving hypothalamic-pituitary-gonadal axis is manifest in women as amenorrhoea and in men as loss of sexual interest and potency. There may also be elevated levels of growth hormones, raised cortisol levels, changes in the peripheral metabolism of thyroid hormone and abnormalities of insulin secretion".
3. If onset is before puberty, that development is delayed or arrested.

totally ripped of from the web..
but its safe to say that im not..then again ppl suffering from anorexia tends to be in denial..oh well..

2009-08-06T03:09:00.000+08:00

and so i survived Day 8..
now back in Sing Sing and in the arms of the neighbour again.
bliss..hmm...
not forgetting 27kg of cargo filled with merchandise that cost me around a thousand dollars..
probably the biggest spent i had in my entire flying career..well not much of a career least to say..

right.
goooday happy people!

2009-07-30T16:26:00.001+08:00

Day 1

So i spent half the day sleeping waking up every once in while to watch the boyfriend gracefully snoring away on my lappy.Thank god for webcams..it really feels as though i was there..

Went out around noon to have my lunch and came back to continue lazing around in bed while watching 13 going 30.Jennifer Garner is hot.

Sigh..7 more days to go..well..atleast a day will be spent working..thats 2 days work which means..actually i only have 5 more days to go..
nope..shopping frenzy have yet to start...

san francisco, here i come!

2009-07-30T16:26:00.000+08:00

Day 1

So i spent half the day sleeping waking up every once in while watch the boyfriend gracefully snoring away on my lappy.Thank god for webcams..it really feels as though i was there..

Went out around noon to have my lunch and came back to continu elazing around in bed while watching 13 going 30.Jennifer Garner is hot.

Sigh..7 more days to go..well..atleast 1 day will be spent working..thats 2 days work which mean..actually i only have 5 more days to go..
nnope..shopping frenzy have yet to start...

san francisco, here i come!

2009-07-29T12:46:00.000+08:00

And so i ended up spending the night at the neighbour's place. My parents not knowing i was out, locked me out.great.theres 2 ways about it- being pesimistic, shit! im locked out..now my parents know ive been sneaking out at night... -being optimistic, great! i get to spend one night with the boyfriend before leaving for 8 days..
either way..im not unhappy about the outcome..i know the moment i touchdown in hongkong, i'm already counting the days to home...
This flight wont be such a drag only with the presence of fadilah my batchmate.how lucky i get to work with her.and so to take advantage of the time further..i decided to be at the airport an hour earlier just so i could spend time with the boyfriend there..sigh.its been a while since ive been away for so long..not so sure how im going to deal with every night..

saw my honda eg9 yesterday at the car mart..apparently the next owner after me havent been taking care of it well..its so fugly right now..but there was so many pretty honda!makes me want to have another honda..hopefully..the neighbour gets it..

geez...im feeling so sappy now..boo me..

2009-07-27T23:42:00.003+08:00

I spend the weekend in Maldives..Not so bad after all despite not bringing my swimming gear along..i decided to just enjoy and soak myself in the clear blue water while wearing a dress..We fed the fishes with buns and wa-laa! amidst the waves, the fishes seeked refuge underneath my dress prolly thingking that the corals could protect them from swaying too much with the tide.hah. of cos i shreaked..its tingly when they start nimbling, no..errr kissing my skin?hahaha ahh watever lah...

I wish i brough my camera along, but me being the fool that i am, takes things for granted..
too many picture taken already to last me a lifetime...
Well if u google it..

this is what u would find...and honestly..itdoes look like this..infact there is a different tone in the colour of the sea...

and im awfully pissed right now...im hungry, the bf is trying to feast on me..and someone ate my pizza prata! of which was suppose to be guarded by the boyfriend! NISHY IS HUNGRY !!! GRRRRRRRRR
me wants food.

2009-07-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

i missed the eclipse! plus i got drenched this morning..very uncool..thank god for my abercombie sweater..atleast i look like a pussycat doll nicole running in the rain.lol

i just jibbered